Now this decision that I made of drinking Ayahuasca, is not something that I did "secretly", I informed my family about this decision and also to my friends, to whom I similarly asked to give me a "space" to be alone during the following weeks, in which I would be doing the diet and preparation that I required to do this.
As soon as I arrived to the terminal, I saw that I actually arrived a couple of hours earlier, so I decided that I would walk from there to the place of reunion to make a little bite of time until the hour. I went through the town, walking through the local stores without stopping at any store, but also not feeling really like a hurry to get at the place, because at every step that I gave to the direction, I felt as if I was going into one of the most challenging experiences that I would ever had in my life, and I had nothing with me but the jacket that I would use to sleep in and the bucket that we were also requested for the purge; I didn´t knew what the place would look like, but I was ready for everything that could come
After another 2 hours of walking along the old roads I finally got to the place, it was a big and beautiful house at one corner of the road, and in the corner an iron door which was, interestingly enough, open as if we didn´t lived in Mexico (lol); I waited a couple of minutes outside, deciding if I should enter or only wait outside until someone came; there was no ring/bell and I knocked at the door once, twice and a third time, nothing... but I finally took the decision to enter through the door, and as soon as I went in I found an amazing room adapted like a yoga studio, with nothing but enormous windows that had a view to an exquisite garden outside, and the floor of wood which was pretty soft as if it was polished by hand. There was also a little piece of furniture at the left of the entrance to place the belongings and in the center of it all, an altar with flowers, candles, feathers and some jars with essential herbs. At one side of the altar there was a woman reclining on the floor with a bucket at her feet. I didn´t wanted to disturbed her sleep spite the fact that I had that weird sensation that she was already aware of my presence.
I leaved my things at the furniture and I got out to the garden, which had a very wide collection of flowers and massive trees, it was paved with a path of small stones and, right in front of the entrance a little space in which it seemed as if it was designated for the people to gather, because of its "circular form". It didn´t took quite a lot until the first people arrived, who just entered as if they were just so familiar with the place and the whole dynamic, so I got close to them and they just smiled at me and extended me a warm welcome to the place with a hug, they said: "This is your first time right?" "Yes" - I answered "Well, get comfortable, it is still a little bit earlier for the ceremony, so maybe you should sleep a little bit before the ceremony, we are going to rest as well, to be able to endure the whole night". I took a place in the yoga studio and I just lay on the floor with nothing but my jacket as a pillow, and I gave into the sleep, feeling somehow quite comfortable of knowing that I didn´t had to worry about taking a look at my stuff, as I was already "safe" within that place.
After one or two hours that I gave in that rest for my body, I woke up and there was already quite a gathering of people of all ages, from elders to even a couple of kids running here and there; it wasn´t at all the kind of scenario that I imagined, but surely it was way lot better than expected... at the very everything was just like a family gathering where everyone seemed to know each other, to laugh and play with each other, even those who stayed at their places preparing themselves with some meditation, there were some people writing and others were playing music.
At the view of such scenario, the fear and anxiousness like just vanished, because even the kids who were present at the ceremony of course had the permission and company of their parents and, they weren´t there to only "look" at the whole dynamic, they were going to drink Ayahuasca as well! A few minutes after the ceremony the shaman finally presented himself at the room with his traditional white robes, accompanied of his girlfriend, who also came in the traditional white robes and with a big smile in her lips. Everyone stood up from their places and one by one he began to hug everyone, to greet everyone and share words and jokes with everyone. This wasn´t at all what I had in mind! Neither it was the whole picture and idea that is created around the Ayahuasca ceremonies, I was expecting the meeting of people deeply disturbed and with huge problems on the verge of suicide! LOL. But it wasn´t at all, as I said before, that was more of a family reunion, more than 50 people gathered in one place simply sharing and enjoying the moment and what was about to come...
Just a few moments before the ceremony, one of guides who were helping the shaman at the ceremony, came close to me and asked:
"Are you Gabriel?"
"Yes- I replied"
"It´s your first time with us right?"
"Yes it is"
"Have you ever done this before or have you tried any other sacred medicine?"
"No, it´s the first time that I do something like this"
"Thank you very much for trusting us to do this work; tell me, do you have any fear or experience of doubt or uncertainty"
"I am afraid - I said - I think that this medicine is going to actually bring quite a scolding for me"
"Why do you think that, have you behave badly recently (he asked with a joking face)?"
"No... I think"
"Don´t worry, you are going to be alright, and trust me in this, You are going to be happy, even if you don´t want to!" He laughed
After he stood up, the shaman made the call for everyone to sit at their places and to listen to "the rules of the ceremony" - "Family! We are going to begin now, remember that the toilet its at the end of the room, don´t throw the paper in the toilet, as this is a dry toilet and we don´t want it to get stuck, we are all going to remain quiet during the ceremony so that we don´t interrupt the music and the focus that we are going to make in the ceremony, which remember this is not only music, this are prayers made music! If you have to cry do so, but please try not to laugh, because there are people who are having deep processes and we must respect what they are going through, don´t touch anyone during the ceremony if you see them crying, because we sometimes feel the urge to go and help, but we maybe are not understanding that they have had that need to cry for a very long time and as soon as we come and try to do our good action, we break that moment of release for them, if you need help for anything rise your hand and I will be with you, all the purge must be in your bucket so please keep it at hand for you in whatever moment, don´t place any paper on it, because tomorrow after the ceremony we are going to trow it to the plants and give thanks to the earth for this work, this a very serious job! (he said while having a joking face and using a funny tone in his voice). You can go out to the garden in the ceremony to relax and look at the stars, but please don´t be out there for so long, the work it´s inside the room. So after that being said, please go to the bathroom now, we are going to make a circle to serve a cup of Ayahuasca to everyone and we are going to drink together at the same time!
I continue with the last part in the next post. Thanks for reading