lunes, 18 de septiembre de 2017

Mi Jornada hacia la Vida, Día 1035, When Life is Set up for Failure

Today is an important day, because I will begin my social service at a little editorial, which is an area that I have wanted to get involved in for quite some time.

I have given a few listenings to this interview by Cerise, which actually has brought quite a point within me whenever it comes to new stuff, because something that I have had the tendency to do throughout my life is to, kind of "give up" before even starting whatever new job, whatever new experience in my life, what I mean by giving up is like kind of being "aware" that I will make mistakes, that nothing is going to be perfect in the first go (which is something quite realistic in a way). But if you kind of considerate this, what I am also saying is that it is "ok" to not give my best only because I am already going to make a mistake...

So, to keep a balance between this two points, what I want to commit myself to do today, on this important day, is to give my best in whatever it is that I am required to do, to always bring the best version of me and within that take my potential out, but remaining aware and also kind of patient with myself if I make a mistake, to be able to learn from it without being rude with me or judging me or whatever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up in whatever new job or experience I walk into, over the idea that "as I am not going to make it perfect on the first go, I can also indulge in this point by not giving my best"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up before I even started, instead of actually coming up with my best motivation and inspiration to give my best at all times, even if I make a mistake I also find the best possible way to come up with solutions instead of just saying "What does it matter? I was going to make mistakes anyway because it is my first day"

I can see how a tension moves within my head, like a form of pressure that forms like saying "Oh no, I am not able to make mistakes", which is actually not the case and within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything that I do today has to be perfect as if I am not allowed to make any mistake, instead of actually be kind with myself understanding and realizing that I am not going to make everything perfect in the first go, but that doesn´t means that I also have to be rude on me therefore

I commit myself to whenever I make a mistake, I ask for support or reference of how to do it in the right way, so that I am able to actually correct myself in whatever way that is required from me to get my job as expected

I commit myself to give the best of myself today, in whatever situation I might face, even if I make a mistake, I find the way to bring the best possible solution to it.