sábado, 5 de noviembre de 2011

Exposing the abuse within myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie to the people

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie so that i dont get in trouble with authority

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide from the authority trough beliving that i would get scolded for my actions

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide grudge within myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take the things personally

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of the authority

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear expose myself and the lies that i have accepted and allowed myself to tell about myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create ideas an judgments within myself towards myself trough defining myself within the judgments and the lies

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame others so that i were able to avoid the trougle and the consequences

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself trough liying to be able to blame others

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny that i have lied

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge others for what they do instead of realizing the abuse that i have accepted within myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a deceiver of life

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forgive the abuse and the aberrations within myself

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the evil within myself that i have created is the result of my accepted and allowed behaviour such as liying to others and to myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let my fear direct me to lie

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself be direted by my fear taking myself to lie to be able to avoid the consequences of liying

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my own fear of the lies that i have accepted and allowed myself to tell and say

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place the finger at those who were exposed of liying instead of recognizing my participation trough lies

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie to myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be my own lies

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to belive my own lies

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse the truth by using and speaking lies

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it was acceptable to lie if i attain something good of it

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself and others

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create lies within my head

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie within relationships

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie to myself by pretending to care about the relationship instead of recognizing that i have just cared about myself and my experience within this world

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a moralist that talks about good and right bad and worng without recognizing that i am the thief, i am the murderer, i am the abuser

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse my own words trough liying and deceiving myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pretend to be a good person so that i dont get in trouble

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pretend to be a very handsome, smart and strong man so that i were able to manipulate and control woman to be able to attain sex

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dare to lie so that i were able to attain sex and joy and money

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place so much value within the money, sex, self-ineterest, that i didnt realize what i was dispose to do in the name of mys self-interest

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard my own words trough liying

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself trough beliving my actions and my lies to be very small to have consequences

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to be blamed of judged by others of being a lier

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be affraid of be scolded and punished by the authority

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to avoid the consequences of my actions trough liying

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be and become a lier

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to tell lies so that i were able to get away of the problems

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use lies to hide another lies

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear face my own consequences for liying

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse the trust n myself trough liying to myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie to get what i want

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to control and manipulate trough lies to be able to ghet what i want

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself tobelieve that the lies would get me trough the problems

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use justifications and excuses as reasons to not take responsibility

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that justifications and excuses are lies

i forgive myself for acceptinga and allowing myself to want to be a perfect picture presentation to be able to manipulate and control others

iforgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be recognized as a pretty good specher so that i were able to do a lot of money

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for informacion that is inetresting instead of supporting

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be and become an interesting person to be accepted and recognized as better than others

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be special

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be better than others

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be an interesting person so that i were able to attain sex

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse the support of other people to attain what i want

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take the support for granted

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself within the experience of egoism

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be an egoistical person

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be an arrogant person

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be and become within the mind a bad person

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to become a bad person to abuse the fear of other people so that i were able to manipulate and control them

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to posses other people so that i dont feel alone

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being alone

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be alone to be able to enjoy myself without anybody that tells me what to do or how to do it

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to listen to my mother when she get angry and start to scream and say that i would feel very alone and that i would never be able to fit in the society, (like i care, lol)

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pretend that i care about what other people opinons are about myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pretend to be someone good to be able to be accepted and therefore that i am able to mainpulate others

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that everyone is stupid except myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be very smart so that i were able to feel good about myself

iam not the lies, i am not a lie, i am my words, the words are who i am and i do not accept myself to continue within this abuse it is enoguh, i do not need or require to lie to be able to get trough the problems, this is what i walk as the principles of oneness and equality